As a child I never bolted, made a scene
Or misbehaved, so every week it seemed
A blank necessity, like waking up

To snow, the boat adrift, or raking leaves.
The sound of worship never reached my soul,
Immune from birth to things invisible, 

And having caught from it no wonder
At the pulse of things, the play of light
And shadow or the slow transgression

Of the body’s thickening hide, the world
That I inherited was not mysterious,
No void, no presence, echo, no response.

Fishing held no interest for me, bait
No metaphor but stark deception that I knew.
All big ideas, from democracy

To birthday presents, though I practice both,
Were never emptied of their meaning since
I never had a certainty to lose.

And if I ever felt the world existed
To be questioned, scourged, abused
I couldn’t revel in the common cause

Since loyalty oaths had long since hung
Along the blackboards in bohemia
When I was old enough to dance to that tune.

The birds don’t sing around the bungalow,
They cough, they sputter, congregate and yell.
Maybe if I’d had a dog myself

I’d understand why loose affection seems
To gather in such moments, unforeseen,
Unasked for, like a golden crown descending