Matthew 25:1-13

When first you came to Paris,
you attended saturnalian balls
in chandeliered rooms with faux-marble walls,
French doors giving out onto jade copses.
Men, versed in the sports of the body,
fingered cigars in velour cases, eyed
you as gristle for their boiling oil,
the net of good fortune catching you in the nick.

You no longer grieve for the past;
but there are days, you admit,
when you yearn for the future.
Still, a burning persists in the gut,
all winter the doctor the only man you unveil for,
your niggling diseases sentencing you
to some final apprenticeship
before the purest happiness comes.