I went because I could. Because I would
not live forever under the cypress tree
with my sisters growing more beautiful,
thin as reeds and hollow enough
that through their open mouths the wind whistled.
And their astral cries and the bark of faraway
dogs and their autumn games that ended
when the sun went down by arson.

Because I could. A face that lit up
like a lamp, a neck like Leda’s. Because beauty
is a lesson you learn when left
to your own devices, under the Olympic sky
that passes, under the olive trees no one
remembers to pollard, long gone, gnarled and tangled,
because beauty is defined not by scandal
but by its lack of company.

I was twelve when Theseus raped me
and left me on the rock of Aphidona.
What lack of choice is beauty forced from?
Nemesis, what is the use of blazing
for your sense of justice when one part
of each victim and one part of each offender
is bound together? In that absence
I do not know what lives in me.

The imagination of men has one face.
For her they will assume a thousand shapes,
draw the sword, raise the sail, reduce a city
to ashes. As if, by beholding her, the idea
and the thing itself would cancel each other out,
freeing them to rise and set out in that clearing.
Menelaus was no better or worse than any.
I cannot remember why I chose him.