for Bokara

I. DAMASCUS

Struck dumb midsong, your half-heart hard against the light,
you quail. One of two things will have transpired here:

The future is a five-pointed star pointing down
at you, a nurturing fear. Or the future is

a stun gun, a death ray out of nowhere, or out
of night, if you're lucky, while you sleep. There's a street

in your city called Expectation. It crosses
a street called Terrible Witnesses. Follow that

until you reach a large open plaza devoid
of happiness. By then you will probably

recognize the heavy helmet of pain
that accompanies a fall from a great height,

or from a steed, or possibly from some flying
animal. Your vision will be obscured, patches

of dark and light will blur your memory. Some day,
though, you will fight the urge to forget this dark

strum of sky you keep falling asleep under.

II. THE CASE AGAINST WAGNER

Shoulder-deep into the longest century,
during the first Festspiele, I said farewell to you

in my heart: I walked into the sea, lost secure
footing, and finally surrendered to the elements

without reservation. Then, several moments
of suppressed sublimity. Strangest, though, is this:

God and Götterdämmerung demand our belief
in them, their existence depends upon it.

Above all, they are subject to mankind's
greatest power: to destroy them by forgetting.

My madness doesn't know forgetting. We are past
remembering, we are past writing it all down.

Espressivo at any price; even music
the slave of men and men's poses. There's a danger

in memory we must not exaggerate.
Fiend, foe, my sometime friend, I must contend I breathe

no longer easily. The ringing in my ears
has turned to gold. By midyear it will dawn on me

that I must leave Germany forever.

III. ARIADNE

I believe you when you tell me you are a bird
in your other life.

Follow the water

to where the winding is. It will tell you
what you want to know. Mother has

lost a hand and more

in the chain of things. Father is uneasy opening
umbrellas indoors. You must go quickly.

This long lash will light

your way. Choose paths leading down
and to the right.

Hold tight the narrow

way. What awaits your arrival is central
to the theme.

I've been awaiting

your arrival all my life and dreading it.
Press your thumbs

into the iris

of your eye. I will build you a house of string
and the bones of flightless birds.

I will fly to you

breathless, barefoot, your red hair threading back down
into the dark, down the staircase

of least surprise.

IV. THE MADONNA OF PORT LLIGAT

Seasons in Port Lligat were long stretches of beach,
uninterrupted sun. Not a day went by when

I was not cavalier. Once, we rented donkeys and rode
them up and down the coasts of Spain. Good days,

I could peel the water's prepuce back, bright blue hood
of the Mediterranean. This went on till

I shot myself in the leg after running out
of rouge. You made indecent jokes about the cost

of good cadmium, wanting me to shoot you too.
With the gun or camera? I asked. Just the gun.

I drew a bull's-eye on your belly, pulled the sea's veil
over your head like the blessed Virgin. You said.

The gun is too small. I want to feel it. So now
your middle gapes, wide enough for me

to crawl inside, if I were small enough.

V. THE SIDEREAL MESSENGER

Galileo and Kepler

A bird, shuttering through caverns, under cities,
does not comprehend the limitation of sky.

What we see is what is real. There is a finite
number of cities on earth, it is true, you can

count them. There may be a finite number of stars
in the night sky. You imagine sin and peril

reside in all you do, but what of the stars,
the infinite fire? Each spark breathes, consumes.

What of our inventions: the lens, the scope,
the camera obscura. Are these facts?

Inexorable extensions of our body?
As believers, are we aware of the limits

of belief? Admit that the spots are seas.
Admit that the bright areas are land.

I am one of the witnesses. I am one who breathes.
There will be millions of others, I assure you.

By morning's light you'll count the bodies.

VI. ALADDIN'S DREAM

There was no bright ladder in my dream.
No angels walking up and down stairs,
                no oiled stone

to rest my head on. Only a shout
of many throats under a cavernous
                roof. Then the lamp