Late afternoon rain of a postponed summer:
wet streets, wet slate roofs, swish of tires, wet awnings,
pin-curled neighbor leaning out on her wrought-iron
window-guard, smoking,

wet chestnuts, wet lavender by the river’s
shades of gray-green. This over-subtle season
will not burst, all clarity, into sunlight.
Petal by petal,

tiger-lilies open up in a pitcher,
orange, yellow, stars or beast-faces yawning.
Leaves like feast-day offerings round an altar
drop on the carpet.

I would love my love, but my love is elsewhere.
I would take a walk with her in the evening’s
milky pearl. I’d sleep with my arms around her confident body, 

arms and legs asprawl like an adolescent.
We’re not adolescents. Our friends are dying
and between us nothing at all is settled
except our loving.

We’ve loved other bodies the years have altered:
knuckles swollen, skin slackened, eyelids grainy;
bodies that have gone back to earth, the synapse
of conscience broken.

Softly, softly, speak of it, but say something.
We are middle-aged and our friends are dying.
What do we lie down beside when we lie down alone, together?

If I could remember the names, the places,
rooms and faces, gestures and conversations,
I’d have some excuse for the years passed through me like air, like water: