Therefore, above all things, he loathed
his miserable self. Propped within that litter
of regret lay his jealous geometry's terms:
he'd leave a wan and wicked world behind, its glitter

and its long shadows like the tiny wish to be
a little happy. Regret, regret the exhaustion
of the day, the glitter and the gritty art
the day makes, the dawn. He knew he ought, on

such short notice as any life is, to get busy
with something like a life of art or honor.

So he painted bursting worlds, orange for sky
and you'd think, looking, that he was fonder