for my wife’s mother

For a long time she pretended
she could remember. There were little tricks
involved, schemes and inventions, or so we thought
looking back. There were ways to speak
that gave away almost nothing. She’d sit in place
like a doll, you said, like a china doll,
the beautiful clear skin of her face
set in no particular expression, as if that, too,
was something she had practised,
stored up against the time she would have
only this part to play, and she wouldn’t know it.
Other times, older times,