Who knows what we will ask of you, need of you?
Who would know why, if I sat up next to your bed
for hours each night, robbing you of the dark,
and you too tired, of course, but registering
each little crescent of light behind each eyelid?
And perhaps it will be in that mild irritation
we will make our first connection, maybe you
will grow to resent this intrusion on your sleep,
and you will wait patiently your entire life
to find that word, whatever words will make
me miserable for a year, but you more free
to breathe and walk in the sun your short while.
You will come out of me, you know, then.
The years of hovering around you, I hope
benignly, afraid that you will learn my fear,
make my mistakes, or that you’ll know what I know,
the sadness of most things a little before
their beauty—these years like my arms will open,