For P 

I am sitting here
on a high chair,
my feet just touching
floor, which makes my
thighs splay out against
the seat, fatter, heavier
than on a low chair.
I think of my thighs
as two seals, fall fat
for winter, spreading on the
edge of precipice to catch
and store some sinking sun.
More than seals, my thighs
need shining on.
They are dead white, and
winter only begun.

If I open my robe
I will see my thighs
holding a bristlebrush,
like black chalice in
a fat man’s hands.
My robe I do not open.
What rises from my thighs
cannot be excused by
how I sit.