I was so young that I invented loss,
The image of the mother’s face receding
On the far edge of the broken bed,

A child’s face, implacable, returning
To a fountain in a foreign city—
Gods and tritons cracked and thin

Behind a chain-link fence that blurred
Into a veil, like the one that draws us,
Following ourselves, into the past.

Not even Rome is consolation for the death
Of children and to think about the future
Is to think of children and to think

About a child is to think of death,
If only since the child is the part of us
That’s disappeared: Aeneas, having mixed

The ashes with the wine, surveying all
The future generations’ gifts to Rome,
Attends to one tall youth, more beautiful 

Than any other but with clouded brows
And downcast eyes, the child we will mourn,
For whom the lilies offer nothing in return.

It would be useful to believe we’d meet 
Again, and all of Christianity 
Seems poised against its knowledge

That the one who dies is not the mother
But the child, Jesus railing at heaven
And the sky, unanswering, omnipotent,

The image of what every parent feels
In the face of suffering that nothing
We have learned to do throughout the long

And unrewarded climb into adulthood
Can assuage. The possibilities 
Are burdensome enough to think of

Much less see: the snowplow sliding off
The exit ramp or blond hair mimicking
A breezy summer at the bottom of the pool. 

We’re children then ourselves, incapable 
Of action or intelligible speech—
A drooling infant sucking on his hands

Like Ugolino, who must hear his children 
Whimpering for bread and bear their charity—
Our pain will lessen, father, if you eat us—