Afraid is not the word,
though I’d rather be quick-witted
than kind in a world that divides evenly

between those who revile and others
who revere the French Revolution,
the Louisiana Purchase, the invasion

of Panama: meiosis toward the birth
of each terribly unforeseen us.
The word for it is neither indifferent

nor terrified
but wavers with me in awed apprehension
that the male who murders