I am this dust on the river road, I'd think .
I am this dust on the tasseled fields—deep summer's
scent of brushfire threaded through this breeze—

and, at that age, I could believe. My world
consisted of a sallow-looking downtown;
streets named after trees; the girls I worshipped

secretly; the cemeteries fringed
with spikes; the breaks in the river hills to the south
(great floodplain vistas fading away to the south)—

where everything ends in a narrow fringe of swampoaks
and cottonwoods overlooming the river . . . Part of
me is always homing, scrambling down

the face of the levee, forcing my way through willows
and driftwood-flotsam of old tires and rusted oildrums—
down to the Corps of Engineers' embankment,

down to the seam where the elements touch, the dense
aorta! dark of slaughterhouse and prairie
sweeping past me . . . There at the tip of the wing dike,

kneeling and sinking back, I'd finger the sandgrains
-fragments of mussel shells-and let the sun-scaled
body of current carry me away ...

Sometimes, I'd close my eyes, and in the cries
of crows-the howls of semis two miles off—
in the barely audible, hoarse note of a tractor

raising dust in the fields across the river,
I could hear the year click shut. One evening,
smouldering down to the nub, I thought I could feel

an odd, irregular throbbing in my jawbone—
skull—the balls of my feet ... The others were back
in the trees: I crouched alone on a spit of sand,

the pulse of an engine pounding all around me,
out of the pores of the limestone cliffsides. Something
was coming towards me-something was churning its way

upriver towards me—thrumming louder and louder
until I could see the train of barges shackled
together-laboring into sight—until