“Shove off. You stink!” When he heard those words, Mat would scuttle away. He heard them a lot, especially from his classmates, and they were probably right. When he bathed, it was rarely with soap. If he had some toothpaste, he used it, but he usually just rubbed his teeth with his pointer finger. 

Mat knew his place. Sometimes the school custodian would let him hang around the back if he helped clean the dishes and tin cups. The custodian was happy to have someone to talk to, and Mat was happy to have someone talk to him. Unfortunately, other kids would also show up to smoke cigarettes, and they would sneer, “Get lost, dumbass!” 

So Mat got lost. He didn’t like conflict, never even considered fighting back. He was emaciated and weak, always wheezing and struggling to breathe. It was better to leave immediately than to dodge the smoldering ends of hurled cigarettes. Not knowing where else to go, Mat would lean against the fence and watch the boys play soccer. They never invited him to join, because a stray ball would have knocked him right over.

Then one day, when he was helping the custodian organize the storage room, he found a rusty old scout knife. He brought it home, polished it, sharpened it, and began to play with it. Heart pounding, knowing how sharp he’d made the blade, he twirled it from his thumb to his pinkie and back again, through the gaps between his three other fingers. 

It was fine that he didn’t have any friends; now he was friends with the dagger. He slept beside it. He carried it with him when he had to help his mother haul water from the well. After a couple of weeks, the other kids at school became quietly aware of Mat’s new friendship, noticing his skill at twirling the knife. A few boys approached, wanting to get a better look. More unbelievably, girls circled him, too, ignoring his rank odor. Even Emi, the prettiest of them all, said in her angelic voice, “Oh, Mat, do it again.” 

Her eyes shone, as if she weren’t just amazed but falling in love at first sight—and then again at the second, the third, the twenty-seventh, the sixty-fourth …