I was trying to write like an adult. 
I had children. 
I was at the end of something.

As I waited at my table by the window for the coffee, 
I saw that the sirocco had deposited 
a scrim of dust on the sill overnight, 
and it was the dark red of powdered blood, 
and like any of the others of my kind would have done, 
I graffitied it.

In the past, I might have gone for a peace sign 
or a smiley face or an ejaculating penis, 
but today I scrawled my name in it 
and my vocation, 
leaving my fingertip ferrous with desert.

It felt like stroking suede against the nap, 
half illicit, the particulates milled by wind 
and sieved by the distance 
to the softness of ash or brick dust.

I had been adding and subtracting 
sounds from my epic on the winds 
that thread the known world, 
but something like a real poem surfaced 
then, in the dust, 
in my letters edged with tiny drifts.

What I wanted in a small thing was some 
principle, some vividness 
that lived both in things small and things great.

A desert is red and the dust is red 
                because the stones 
                that make it up were red. 
                It is the iron held within. 
                They share the rationale of blood.