He crouched on the levee, hidden by the climbing vine that wound through the chain-link, spying on his mother. A row of eucalyptus swished behind him in the breeze, blocking the afternoon sun. When the wind died down he heard a trickle in the ditch and caught a whiff of rot emanating from the orange groves.

Then he caught a whiff of himself. It was not the smell of his sweat that disgusted him but knowing that people sweated when they were nervous.

He thought: I cause damages / cause gauze bandages …

What Brad Camacho needed was for his mother to leave the house with the laundry and enter the garage, giving him an opening to hop the fence and dart inside. He probed the gash in his bottom lip with his tongue, parting the flesh until it produced sharp pain.

The blindfolded palomino in the field next door stamped its foot and neighed. From where he sat, Brad could see his mother’s head framed by the kitchen window. She was washing dishes. A cup, he could tell, from the way her right shoulder rotated inward. He hated the shiver that ran through him when she suddenly looked up, her face blank.

I cause damages / cause gauze bandages / boss paid the cost to floss near Los Angeles …

False bindweed. The proper name for the climbing vine. Brad’s grandfather had planted it. Loquats, lemons, poisonous cherries, Valencia oranges. The weeds had gotten bad, knee-high mustard plants. Spurge covered the ground like netting, flies on fallen fruit. Every time Brad visited the convalescent, his grandpa instructed him to leave the yard untouched until he came home.

And there she finally went, laundry basket in tow. Through the back, straight along the footpath. She balanced the basket on her right knee, wrenched open the broken screen door, and Brad was up and over the fence, staying low across the dirt basketball court, past the overgrown vegetable garden, and across the lawn, two seconds in full view of the garage, then through the back door, ashamed of the pounding of his heart.



He put on Psycho Realm, letting her know he was home. His face in the mirror⁠—fat, purple bottom lip with bright red split; left eye so swollen you couldn’t find the slit where it opened; burst blood vessel in right eye⁠—worse than he’d thought. The knots on his forehead were rhino-like. Out the window, Ginger lay her head on her paws, curled up at the gate, where she’d been since his grandpa left.

“Chachie! Dinner!”

He’d told her not to call him that. He thought: Boss paid the cost to floss near Los Angeles / I toss amateurs / throw novices / no stopping this …

She tried the knob and said, “Unlock this door,” he said, “Chale,” she said, “NOW,” he said, “Naii,” she said, “BRAD,” he said, “BUG,” she said, “Jesus,” and he said, “Jesus, you.”

“Hey, dude.” Her voice soft, the awkwardness of dude. “I made food for us. Can you eat with me, please? It’s just us now, you know.”

He bit the gash in his lip and turned the music up, rapping along until he was sure she’d left: “Keep your eye on the barrel of the Beretta / the lead comin’ to wet’cha / spread your body parts all over the continent / I’m a dominant mothafucka but you’re the opposite …”