Here I am walking between Ocean and Neptune
sinking my feet in mile after mile of wet life.
I am practically invisible
in the face of all this clutter,
either straying near the benches over the buried T-shirts
or downhill in the graveyard
where the burned families are sleeping in the sun
or eating dry lunch among the corpses.
I will finish walking in two hours
and eat my sandwich in the little park
beside the iron Methodist.
This is the first step.
Tomorrow I will start again in Barnegat
and make my way towards Holgate or Ventnor.
This is something different
than it was even five years ago.
I have a second past to rake over
and search through—another 2,000 miles of seashore
to account for.
—I am still making my mind up
between one of those art deco hotels
in Miami Beach, a little back room on a court
where you could almost be in Cuba or
Costa Rica of the sweet flesh; and
a wooden shack in one of the mosquito marshes
in Manahawkin or the Outer Banks.