I was edging along a deer trail
past halfway into a thicket so dense
the tarweed stains never washed out
of my jeans, bur I almost turned
and backed out when I smelt it

thickening through the head-high bristle
of sage, buckthorn and manzanita,
smothering their alert tangs.
I must have been fourteen, and I’d never
known that reek, but my body

knew it and answered—nausea
was a kind of foreknowledge.
It was worse on the other side,
inescapable as the heat: there,
near the shade at the withered

edge of the clearing I’d broken into
a dead calf slumped into the soil.
It had nothing ro do with me:
back in the brush, I’d fallen behind
the hunt so I had to hurry