(for Tess Gallagher)

Each pine’s sun-endowed
shadow follows April’s down-
ward flights and where a crow’s
muddy footprints show it sits
an initiating circle
on the ground and round
the wet grass, ring of council
I can be one in, passing
the ancient peacepipe filled
with rain to my right
or are you supposed to go left—?
Once again, and always,
for not knowing the rules
OK, I get expelled—
fool. Or as James Tate
once called me in a poem, paralytic,
cripple… it’s true: I sit
praying to join in, the
spiral prance, skip-heel hop
of your raindance, sun! but—