The New York City Marathon has come again, awing, baffling, and intimidating the more sedentary among us with its pursuit of voluntary physical punishment. In a downtown studio a few months ago, another marathon of sorts took place. Ruth Irving was filmed for three hours by the artist Jan Baracz writing the passive present conjugation of the Latin verb “to punish” (punio, punire). I am punished, you are punished … The camera was positioned over Irving’s shoulder as she dipped her calligraphy pen in the inkwell, tracing the words over and over until the page was covered. They had agreed she would just keep writing, creating layers of script on script. Jan looked nervously on, asking her occasionally in his absurdly thick Polish accent if she was okay, which she found irritating after awhile. Her own forced awareness—she couldn’t look away or she would lose her place on the page—was exhausting enough. She had imagined that the difficulty would be at least partly physical—hand cramps or parched throat. But the worst part of it was that she couldn’t stop, sit back and look. As an illustrator, calligrapher, and former architecture student, that’s what she did instinctively, or compulsively. The surveying pause of the artist before the brush lands on the paper. But she was working blind. That was true punishment.
Last fall, Ruth met Jan at a potluck thanksgiving in Brooklyn. They had an immediate, inexplicable rapport in the way only true odd couples can. Five foot ten, pale with raven-black hair, Ruth is from Melbourne, Florida, the daughter of conservative Christians. One of five children, she was homeschooled, wore long skirts, and was not allowed to listen to “music with rhythms.” She describes the environment as “a radical, defy-the-man mixture of religion and hippy anarchism.” She was pulled out of first grade just as she was just learning cursive. “I only knew half the cursive alphabet. It was something I was kind of embarrassed about.” As a result, two years ago, at age twenty-nine, she decided to teach herself to script. “Being homeschooled and being separated, it’s easy to cherish and hold on to, but at the same time it’s really painful,” she says. “Reality is so different from that precious bubble. I wanted to work on communicating with people. Now I’m scripting like everyone who went to school.” She became so adept at it that she was able to find work writing invitations and addressing formal envelopes.
Jan, who is fifty-five, grew up in communist Poland, the only child of an artist and a graphic designer. “I came from an insane mix of two repressive cultures, Catholicism and communism. My family was neither religious nor communist but the culture was soaked with it, that mentality of discipline and punishment. It’s still in my system.” A philosophy major, he moved to New York in 1981 and joined the movement of conceptual artists who were jacks of all trades—sculptors, builders, painters, electricians, videographers, mechanics. His work is minimalist and cerebral, labor intensive with a kind of exquisite simplicity as its result. “I loved Ruth’s scripting work, but I also had mixed feelings because it seemed so crafty and laborious,” he recalls. “To be perfecting handwriting is a ridiculously obsolete skill. It seems like a punishment in itself. So I thought, let’s push it farther. Let’s have a punishment assignment. I wanted to create this feeling of a classroom exercise, of something that you were supposed to write on a blackboard forever.”
As is clear from the contagiously grinning humanity in silver capes at the end of the marathon, one paradoxical consequence of punishing yourself is exhilaration. So it was with this “endurance performance piece.” The idea of transforming pain, which Jan likes to call our “default position,” into something else, is, after all, an ancient religious notion. “It’s like alchemy,” he says, a grin spreading on his handsomely dour Slavic features. “You have lead. It’s heavy. It’s not what you want in your life. Through misuse, you come up with a completely different quality. The result was so surprising.” So much so that Ruth took out her quill and did it again. This time for four hours.
Susannah Hunnewell is the Paris editor of The Paris Review.