{"id":74096,"date":"2014-07-17T13:24:53","date_gmt":"2014-07-17T17:24:53","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.theparisreview.org\/blog\/?p=74096"},"modified":"2014-07-17T13:33:42","modified_gmt":"2014-07-17T17:33:42","slug":"notes-from-the-milk-cave","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.theparisreview.org\/blog\/2014\/07\/17\/notes-from-the-milk-cave\/","title":{"rendered":"Notes from the Milk Cave"},"content":{"rendered":"

Breastfeeding and boredom<\/em>.<\/p>\n

\"Wyspianski_Motherhood\"<\/a>

Detail from Stanis\u0142aw Wyspia\u0144ski\u2019s Motherhood<\/i>, 1902.<\/p><\/div>\n

\u201cYou are an animal,\u201d my husband told me. We were in bed. The context was not what you\u2019d expect. A baby was latched onto my right breast while the left leaked an opalescent waterfall of milk.<\/p>\n

\u201cI\u2019m a mammal,\u201d I said. This is about as deep as our conversations got in the first month of parenthood. We were upstairs in what we have dubbed the milk cave\u2014the dim bedroom of the nineteenth-century log cabin in southeastern Ohio, where we are currently living. I spend the better part of my days here, watching as my baby\u2019s eager, sucking mouth goes rooting, and then latches on with the force of a heavy lid sealed shut on an overflowing container. There is nothing soft or gentle about my baby\u2019s latch. It is the precise enactment of its definition: a clamping on, a fastening of two bodies. I feel a sudden tug of suction, a rasp of thirst, then sleepiness. I listen for the ker, ker, ker<\/em> of her swallowing.<\/p>\n

Before I gave birth, I knew breastfed babies needed to eat every two hours. But knowing this did not prepare me for the sheer amount of time breastfeeding would demand. Even if someone had told me \u201ctwenty minutes per breast per feeding,\u201d it would still have taken sitting down every two hours for forty minutes for me to understand, because just like every other aspect of pregnancy and motherhood\u2014morning sickness, contractions\u2014the imagined experience turned out to be laughably unlike the experience itself.<\/p>\n

I was hunkered down in the milk cave in a mess of sheets, sticky with an overabundance of milk, balancing the baby in the football hold and watching her eyes blink slowly open and closed with the rhythm of sucking. I\u2019d finally finish, set her in her Baby Bj\u00f6rn, and start digging into e-mails and then, again, she\u2019d shove her fist in her mouth and start smacking her gums with comic franticness. Whole yellow and green summer days slipped by between the milk cave and the breezy porch, gazing at baby on the breast, at the whirring fan and the sheets with their pattern of roses, at the pastures of wavering grasses incandescent in afternoon light. Nights I awoke at two, at four, at six, and in the grainy coffee black, I\u2019d hold the warm parcel of her, feel the eager pressure of those small gums, our animal bodies pressed together, the trickle of milk, the darkness undulating a bit in my delirium. I\u2019d try not to fall asleep, have half-thoughts, then enter a space of no thoughts at all. <\/p>\n

At first the novelty of the experience was enough to consume me entirely. But after a few weeks, I grew restless. I had to do something else. Or rather, I had to do<\/em> something, since breastfeeding somehow didn\u2019t count. It seemed to exist in that nowhere realm of feminine activity: in the back stairways, the dark kitchens, those places where women do the invisible work that drives and maintains life. The essential, ground-level work: the feeding, the nurturing, the staving off of chaos, work not measured in hours, miles, words, dollars. Work that doesn\u2019t count as such. I would sit and stare and enter an oxytocin-fueled dream state, a new kind of boredom.<\/p>\n

In the past, I\u2019ve felt boredom as a restrained and tedious anticipation: How many more minutes in the waiting room, or until the bus arrives, or until this lecturer stops droning on? Boredom as a state of toe-tapping impatience for the next event. But in breastfeeding, boredom was a kind of presence, an altered way of being. It didn\u2019t involve any anticipation. The act of giving milk itself is pleasant and soothing; it\u2019s not that I am eager for it to end. And it\u2019s not that it is uninteresting, between the strange palpable effects of the oxytocin and the mesmerizing face of the latched baby. It just doesn\u2019t fit into the matrix of productivity or purpose or attention I\u2019m accustomed to. It is simply being, mammal-animal being, layered with a human consciousness as thin and light as linen. It is not directed, not overtly constructive, containing the possibility of a spark of curiosity or desire, but also the possibility of a lack of either. There could be a revelation\u2014an insight to be used in an essay or in dinner conversation\u2014or there could be nothing more than the vaguest drifting of consciousness among the wind in the trees, a faint awareness of the sound Pattiann Rogers describes as a \u201ccavalry of paper horses.\u201d It is this lack of drive and intentionality, lack of self perhaps, that I find so unfamiliar and disconcerting. That I call boredom<\/em>.<\/p>\n

So I did what we do when we become bored: I bought an iPhone. The iPhone is incomparably handy for traveling and for taking six thousand\u00a0photos of baby in hooded bath towels, baby in socks, baby in sweatpants, baby with flowers, baby with dogs, et cetera, but breastfeeding was the final justification: I needed a task to perform. And so at two A.M. I started writing one-handed e-mails, checking Twitter, googling Muriel Rukeyser. I got things done. I rejoined the ranks of multitaskers, not only living my life but cataloging and documenting it, too, making sure it adhered to measurable standards of productivity.<\/p>\n

It only took about a week or so to recognize the loss behind this gain. The self I\u2019d returned to\u2014busy, hyperaware of a particular situation and its particular worth and where she is heading and why\u2014felt more boring than the self present in milk and darkness. I couldn\u2019t fall asleep again at three A.M., after the constant churning of Twitter. And each time I turned from the screen to my baby\u2019s face, I felt guilty, as if I\u2019d just missed a whole era for the forgettable pseudo-events taking place over and over in the spinning hamster wheel of cyberspace.<\/p>\n

One night, as I was breastfeeding, checking e-mail on my phone, and thinking about this tension between presence and multitasking, I came across a recent post highlighting the work of the psychoanalyst Adam Phillips, who emphasizes the importance of boredom in learning to pay attention to the world. Phillips writes:<\/p>\n

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In boredom, we can also say, there are two assumptions, two impossible options: there is something I desire, and there is nothing I desire. But which of the two assumptions, or beliefs, is disavowed is always ambiguous, and this ambiguity accounts, I think, for the curious paralysis of boredom \u2026 In boredom there is the lure of a possible object of desire, and the lure of the escape from desire, of its meaninglessness.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

It is this in-betweenness that makes boredom so disconcerting. I\u2019m staring out at the pastures, hypnotic in summer heat, their hazy grasses swaying, lulled by this escape from desire, its meaninglessness, and then a thought comes and I want equally to follow it and to let it go.<\/p>\n

\u201c\u2018When I\u2019m bored,\u2019\u201d one \u201crelentlessly cheerful child\u201d explains to Phillips, \u201c\u2018I don\u2019t know myself.\u2019\u201d When I\u2019m not writing, when I\u2019m not multitasking, when I\u2019m not consciously constructing new material, I don\u2019t know myself. But in breastfeeding, I have found that not knowing myself brings its own satisfaction. Or perhaps it\u2019s simply a way to be more present in the world at a time when just being without interpretation or justification or representation seems increasingly rare. The difficulty, I discover in writing, is in seeing boredom not as a gimmick, but rather as a state of being to be explored, productive or not productive.<\/p>\n

In the midst of working through these thoughts, breastfeeding on the front porch one clear afternoon, I tasted a blackberry\u2014that is, I didn\u2019t just eat a blackberry expecting a blackberry taste. Looking out at the proscenium of summer sky over the humming stage of woods and pasture, I tended to think that maybe I\u2019d just never paid so much attention. The blackberry had been just another layer in a multilayered reality. But when I spend the majority of my day sitting with a baby at my breast, with my world limited to a series of delicate, one-handed reaches and careful crab walks, my brain soft and dreamy with oxytocin, I notice only one flavor at a time, or I don\u2019t consciously notice at all. I settle into my boredom as the day settles into its changing airs and clouds, until the baby pulls abruptly off the breast as she tends to do, sending a little jolt of pain through my nipple and leaning her head back in pure satisfaction, a dribble of milk running down her chin.<\/p>\n

Breastfeeding and boredom. \u201cYou are an animal,\u201d my husband told me. We were in bed. The context was not what you\u2019d expect. A baby was latched onto my right breast while the left leaked an opalescent waterfall of milk. \u201cI\u2019m a mammal,\u201d I said. 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Sarah Menkedick divides her time between Mexico and a farm in southeastern Ohio. Her work has appeared or is forthcoming in <\/em>Harper\u2019s,<\/em> Oxford American,<\/em> The New Inquiry,<\/em> Amazon’s Kindle Singles, and elsewhere. She is the founder of<\/em>\u00a0Vela<\/a>, an online magazine of nonfiction writing by women.<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"