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Alba de C\u00e9spedes, 1965. Courtesy of Wikimedia Commons<\/a>.<\/p><\/div>\n

On September 8, 1943, Italy surrendered to the Allies, and the Germans, who had already occupied the north of Italy, immediately moved to take over the rest of the country. Just days later, they invaded Rome. Meanwhile, British and American forces had landed in the south and were slowly moving northward.<\/em><\/p>\n

The writer Alba de C\u00e9spedes and her companion (and later her husband), Franco Bounous, were living in Rome. De C\u00e9spedes had been jailed briefly by Mussolini for antifascist activities; Bounous was a diplomat and did not want to collaborate with the Germans. As conditions in the city worsened, becoming more chaotic and more dangerous, de C\u00e9spedes and Bounous decided to leave. On September 23, \u201csecretly, at night,\u201d they departed, \u201ceach with a suitcase,\u201d de C\u00e9spedes wrote to her mother, \u201cthinking we\u2019d be gone a few days, that Rome would soon be liberated.\u201d They escaped to a village in Abruzzo, east of the city, where they expected they would be able to wait in tranquility. But the Germans showed up, and they fled again, to a tiny village in the mountains nearby, Torricella Peligna.<\/em><\/p>\n

This diary recounts the days between October 18, when they had to flee Torricella and go into hiding in the woods, and November 19, when they decided to try to get through the German lines to reach the safety of the Allied-occupied zone. De C\u00e9spedes later wrote, \u201cLife had gradually become more unbearable, the Germans were coming at night, too. So we decided to risk it all and cross the lines, reaching the Anglo-American troops. And safety. We did that, walking at night, November 20\u201d\u00a0 Guided by a local farmer, Fioravante, they managed to cross the Sangro river, which marked the German front line, and arrive in the Allied zone. From there they were taken in a farm cart to Bari, where de C\u00e9spedes began broadcasting for the antifascist station Radio Bari. Eventually she and Bounous moved to Naples and, finally, returned to Rome, after it had been liberated by the Allies in June of 1944.<\/em><\/p>\n

\u2014Ann Goldstein, translator<\/strong><\/p>\n

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October 18, 1943<\/strong><\/p>\n

We were still asleep this morning, sheltering in the dusty, desolate tax office in Torricella, when we heard frantic knocking at the door. The pale face of Carmela, the girl from downstairs, appeared, animated by a new fear: \u201cQuick, get out right away, the Germans have surrounded Lama dei Peligni and taken the men, all of them. Now they\u2019re on their way up here.\u201d We dressed in a few minutes, maybe three or four, not even taking the time to grab some clothes, and we were gone, Franco, Aldo, and I, rushing down the stairs. Someone was already shouting, \u201cHere they are, you can hear the truck.\u201d We hurried along narrow stony streets, running amid other people running, me wanting to stop and catch my breath, then thinking, I have to make it, I don\u2019t want to leave the others, and I kept running, with a stitch in my side. Some young people were fleeing with their few possessions salvaged in a basket, and we all looked to see if the white ribbon of the main road was stained with the yellow of German cars. Ears strained to the faintest hum. Squatting below the level of the main road, we let some armored vehicles go by, then we ran, crossing it quickly, almost in a leap, and were finally on a path through the fields. Aldo said: \u201cWe have to get to the Defensa woods, no one will come and look for us over there.\u201d In less than three hours we had found shelter on Trecolori\u2019s farm, an isolated place at the edge of the big woods. Trecolori is a sly, monkeyish old farmer who lived in Pennsylvania for twelve years. He didn\u2019t have room for us; already, there were numerous relatives around the hearth who had come from nearby villages to escape the raids, some sitting on sacks of flour, others crowded on the floor, looking at us silently. \u201cYou can sleep in a stable, five hundred meters from here. Anyway, it\u2019s just for one night.\u201d<\/p>\n

We\u2019ve been here now for five days. We\u2019re sleeping in a hut that\u2019s half stable, half woodshed, with straw pallets on the ground, and at night we light a fire. A broken-down door barely hides a view of the sky. It\u2019s very cold. Each of us sleeps wrapped in a blanket: even our heads are wrapped, to warm ourselves with our breath. Seven men are sheltered in this stable; I\u2019m wearing pants and live with them like a comrade.<\/p>\n

We\u2019re attuned to the sound of a footstep, a rustling. If there\u2019s danger, if the Germans come down to raid the farms, someone\u2014there\u2019s always a lookout\u2014sends an agreed-on whistle, a word. The signal of alarm spreads instantly from shelter to shelter, all the way to us, here at the edge of the woods. Immediately, tumbling through the plowed fields, we reach the stream, cross it, go up into the woods, hide in the thicket of trees and brush. We stay there, silent, motionless, sometimes in the rain, for hours. I don\u2019t know how we\u2019ll manage if the cold gets worse. We don\u2019t have coats, not even a wool sweater. The English are still at Termoli: the battle is really fierce. Sometimes, around sunset, Allied prisoners headed for the Sangro river pass through the countryside like shadows. They want to reach their lines, but it\u2019s hard. We stop them, hoping for news. They\u2019re surprised to find down here, in the middle of nowhere, someone who speaks their language, knows their countries. Then we follow them with our eyes as they grow distant, and it\u2019s as if through them we were sending out a cry for help: Come! Free us! We have no comfort other than the news brought by mouth from Torricella, where someone hiding in a cellar listens to Radio London. Meanwhile the season is advancing\u2014we\u2019ll have to build a shelter in the woods if we\u2019re going to spend many hours in the rain.<\/p>\n

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October 19, 1943<\/strong><\/p>\n

Peppino arrived last night running, terrified. He\u2019d spent eight hours in a woodshed, scarcely breathing. The Germans showed up without warning in Torricella yesterday morning: they blocked the streets, seized all the men and loaded them on a truck, and drove off. Donato Porreca, the owner of the shop, tried to flee, but a machine-gun volley lashed him in the side, and he was killed instantly. Peppino described the agony of the women screaming as the truck left. Meanwhile the death bell tolled for poor Donato.<\/p>\n

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October 20, 1943<\/strong><\/p>\n

This morning we were all up at four, ready to flee. False alarm: it was a French prisoner passing through the fields, and a farmer fired in the air. Last night, while we were gathered around the fire at Trecolori\u2019s farm, we heard shots nearby and women\u2019s voices crying for help. A farmer arrived, running, with the message: it\u2019s the Germans, they\u2019re shooting. With Aldo and Franco, I rushed down the slope above the stream, the branches and briars dense, almost impenetrable. Behind us a woman\u2019s crying could be heard, the lament of Sofia who was calling her husband. Around us other refugees were fleeing; a Russian shouted, \u201cWhere are you? Help me,\u201d and risked getting us all discovered. I could have killed him to shut him up. Down the steep embankment to the stream, grabbing a tree trunk, scratched by thorns, through the creaking thicket of branches. We exchanged words muffled by fear: Off with the raincoats, they\u2019re too pale, they can be seen in the shadows. Like blind men we went into the stream, the freezing water came to our knees; we crawled up the wooded embankment opposite on all fours. In the midst of the terrible fear I remembered stories I read as a child, the jungle stories. At every step you had to extricate your foot from the tangled vegetation of the undergrowth, make a pathway with your hands, eyes closed so that the thorns wouldn\u2019t wound them. Franco\u2019s eyes were protected by his glasses. At times I had a suspicion that we were doing all this for fun. I, Alba, couldn\u2019t truly be in such a grave situation, on the point of being captured by German soldiers, shot, killed. The entire experience seemed stronger than me, than my capacity to endure. Whereas at other times, in the silent, insidious darkness, the danger seemed to me so close that there was no escape, no possibility of flight. It was over, we\u2019d been captured. The grim, distant barking of a dog made my distress more acute. And over all was the humiliation of having to flee like a criminal, sampling the life of a murderer or thief, though I had committed no crime, only dreamed that my own country could be free and civilized.<\/p>\n

Some two hours in the woods. Cold. Occasionally we\u2019d start moving again, climbing uphill to get warm. All around were the innumerable sounds of the nocturnal life of the forest: the voice of an owl, a slow rustling in the dry leaves, a darting among the branches. The three of us sitting on the ground waiting. Finally we heard a distant, low whistle: the whistle of friends. It was as precious as suddenly recovering the taste of life.<\/p>\n

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October 21, 1943<\/strong><\/p>\n

Nothing new. Inert and discouraging wait. The English don\u2019t arrive; according to the news from Torricella they\u2019re in Istonio. Mariuccia, a sly, skinny woman of ninety, serves as a link between the town and us. She brings the news in a note written by Don Peppe, the notary in Torricella, and hidden in her corset or her bun. A lot of airplane activity. We\u2019re starting to wear holes in our woolen socks, the only ones we have. Also the salt is gone. This morning, after long days, we went to wash in the brook. In the afternoon we studied positions for a shelter in the woods, choosing the most secure. The trees were illuminated by the setting sun, the fallen leaves were red and shiny. Clusters of pale cyclamens emerged from under the tufts of broom. I would have liked to make a bouquet, as I used to do in the woods in Ariccia as a child, but it seemed frivolous to be picking flowers while we were trying to choose the place for a shelter to save our lives. Franco and the others strained their ears at the crackle of a machine gun that could be heard coming from Montenerodomo, at the edge of the woods.<\/p>\n

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October 22, 1943<\/strong><\/p>\n

I\u2019m writing on the rocks by the brook. We came to wash. Aldo and Trecolori are digging a shelter under a large boulder on the shore. We\u2019re tired, nervous, mute. Sometimes we enter the state of mind of the criminal who can\u2019t hold out any longer and hands himself over to the law. Peppino said I\u2019m risking everything, but I want to go home, to San Vito. We take out our bad mood on the lack of food and the wretched bedding. If not for the ineffable solace of nature, life would be without dreams or joy, entirely harsh, to be endured, to be lived faithfully, with no escape.<\/p>\n

I feel humiliated waiting to be freed by the English. Every day we wonder, almost impatiently, scanning the outlines of the hills: When are they coming? Reduced to waiting for the joyous arrival of foreign soldiers!<\/p>\n

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Later<\/strong><\/p>\n

I reread what I wrote above. It seems to me that I\u2019m still bound to petty, limited principles. The fact that they inhabit a country divided from mine by a mountain range or the sea, that they speak a different language, shouldn\u2019t create an obstacle between us. A common civilization, a Christian solidarity, should bind peoples: with these considerations it becomes easy for me to accept their help, wait for their arrival. And yet, in spite of myself, in this relentless struggle, through this consuming defense of ourselves, I sense a struggle for my country, a consuming defense of my country, this, Italy, this and no other, the Italy that made my heart beat faster when as a child I merely heard the name: this is what I defend. These fields, these trees, these farms, these backward villages of a poor and defeated country are mine and I defend them as I can with my hatred, my flight, my torn socks, the darkness that frightens me. I left Rome with the sole desire to preserve my freedom, moving abruptly from my pink room on Via Duse to the sight of burned-down houses, caves populated by refugees for whom life is reduced to eating and sleeping, and now I resist precisely to defend this poverty of ours, this pain of being humans who are banished, hunted, humiliated, and defeated.<\/p>\n

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October 24, 1943<\/strong><\/p>\n

Nothing reassuring for two days. We\u2019re increasingly ragged, increasingly dirty. It\u2019s hard to glimpse the possibility of holding out still longer without being able to change, always sleeping in our clothes, so tired, so nervous. In the evening a mortal sadness takes possession of us: around five, when it\u2019s still day for those who live in cities, who can flick a switch, turn on the lights, pick up a book. Live. It\u2019s night for us, forced to the weak light of the hearth or to walking silently in the dark. The days are uncertain, tedious, humiliating. They die leaving each of us with a more profound weariness and no hope for the new day. In the depths of this dark valley no one helps us or enlightens us. Every bush is a threatening shadow, the donkey chomping in the haystack is the sound of hobnailed boots on the path. It\u2019s the safest time: at night the Germans are unlikely to risk the woods, they\u2019re afraid of ambushes. And yet an invincible terror overwhelms us at that hour. Franco and I walk along the rocky path. We try to rediscover strength in ourselves. Instead we\u2019re frail, a negative thought is enough to crush us. We\u2019re motionless for hours, sitting on the ground, fascinated by the flashes from the artillery firing behind the mountains. Every day, we talk for hours about crossing the lines. Franco says: how is it possible with a woman? And Edoardo looks at Emilia\u2014they often come to see us from the farm where they\u2019ve found shelter\u2014and repeats: it\u2019s not possible. That humiliates me, depresses me. I\u2019m sure I, too, would make it; like theirs, my shoes are heavy, hiking shoes. I proposed to Emilia that we let them go alone, and then follow, the two of us, leaving an hour later, without their knowing.<\/p>\n

Three women stopped by the stable. One was carrying a sick child in a basket on her head. A stomach abscess. She had heard that there was a doctor among us, they had walked kilometers, hoping he could operate. But Mario wasn\u2019t here, he was out looking for food. And, besides, he couldn\u2019t operate, he has only a pocketknife. They waited for him silently, their faces already grim. Mario said later that the child will die.<\/p>\n

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October 25, 1943<\/strong><\/p>\n

Franco had a very high fever yesterday. I gave him my straw pallet. We have no more candles, no matches. After sunset we move around the stable groping, as if we were blind. The dark is a nightmare, it seizes us by the throat. And the woods, with the trees losing their leaves, no longer seems to want to offer us protection. We have nothing, we can have nothing. Even an old shepherd is terrified and doesn\u2019t dare go to Torricella for medicine.<\/p>\n

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Later<\/strong><\/p>\n

I have a map of the area, and everyone comes to us to consult it. On the map, inset between three small circles that mark the towns of Buonanotte, Torricella, and Montenerodomo, and in a darker color since we\u2019re at an altitude of a thousand meters, you can see the position of these woods. Three small Abruzzo villages whose existence I didn\u2019t even suspect, and which I would never have known if this disaster hadn\u2019t befallen Italy. Now, however, I hear their names from morning to night, and the contours of these villages on the distant horizon have become as familiar to me as the faces of my father and mother. My life now exists in this delicate tangle of lines that the area of a fingernail could cover. My past, my fairy-tale childhood, my work, my travels, the people I\u2019ve met\u2014all that I\u2019ve lived, in short, was to lead me here, to these woods. And my future, my safety are entrusted to these trees. My life is entrusted to the leaves that don\u2019t drop off, to the snow that doesn\u2019t fall. Books read, faithful friends are no longer of use to me, everything is now contained within the woods called la Defensa. Defensa<\/em> in Spanish means \u201cdefended.\u201d On the big map of the world these woods are a speck of dust and I am an infinitesimal part of it, and yet it\u2019s here that everything is decided for me.<\/p>\n

No one knows that in this tangle of lines, in these woods in Abruzzo, there\u2019s a woman named Alba, and that she\u2019s still young and likes the colors of the sky and the woods, likes life immensely and still has many things to do and say, and yet tomorrow she may no longer exist.<\/p>\n

No one knows anything. My mother is in Havana, and outside the door of our house there\u2019s a big palm tree, my friend. My mother thinks I\u2019m in Rome and maybe she goes out and talks to her friends while I\u2019m lying on the ground in the mud, hidden behind a bush, or I\u2019m poking at the fire, blowing hard, and Franco is sick, shivering, in the grip of malaria.<\/p>\n

Oh, I wish the door would open now, and someone would come in and say the war is over, no one will be killed anymore, we can go out, speak aloud, be seen, be free.<\/p>\n

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October 26, 1943<\/strong><\/p>\n

I can barely write in this shoddy, beat-up notebook. I have to take it with me every time there\u2019s an alarm, it\u2019s unwise to leave it in the stable. Tonight it was crushed between two plants near the cave dug by Trecolori. Yesterday evening, at six, the alarm. We fled to that cave, Franco and I alone, with the blankets over our shoulders. We were buried in the darkness. Franco had a very high fever, he was trembling as he lay in the gloom of the cave: a profound and tenacious dampness rose from the earth despite the blankets. No sound except the tumbling of the stream, which at first seemed to us a hoarse drumroll. We went back up after two hours. The Germans are getting closer. The circle tightens. This morning we were in alarm for three hours, first in the cave, then in the woods. We\u2019re reduced to nearly nothing. Franco has a fever again. They pass<\/p>\n

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October 28, 1943<\/strong><\/p>\n

The preceding journal entry was interrupted because of an alarm. The Germans were very close by. We fled into the woods, Franco feverish and extremely weak. We have no water, our underwear is torn, we have to jealously conserve the fire under the ashes because we have no more matches to light it again. The men are exasperated by the lack of cigarettes. Carmine, Trecolori\u2019s son, got hold of some tobacco leaves. They crush them and then roll the tobacco in the German-language leaflets that the RAF pilots drop over the lines. We\u2019re exhausted. The English are still distant, five kilometers from Vasto, it\u2019s said. Meanwhile the Germans are sacking the villages all around, tonight it was Montenerodomo\u2019s turn. Life has never been so serious for me. Only there\u2019s a great sweetness in the innocent candor of Aldo, who regrets not having a cake today, for his birthday. Soon even the comfort of writing these notes will end; I have no idea how to get another notebook.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m writing on my knees while the others argue nervously and irritably about politics. The Poles came, too, three young students who for four years have been fleeing from town to town. We built two sawhorses from logs with the bark stripped off to sit on in the stable. Around sunset, people from all the shelters in the woods come to our hut, drawn by the warmth of the fire. There are Romanians, Russians, Yugoslavs, a German Jew, some former political internees. All bound by a human solidarity that abolishes borders and passports. We don\u2019t ask names or political stripes, we only read in the eyes of the others the need for help in getting through these brutal hours of life. Here, in this remote stable, at an altitude of a thousand meters, it seems to me that the Italy we wanted is truly being born. My heart races at this sudden discovery. Here, right here, in this stable, worn out, hungry, with nothing, nothing that resembles civilized life, we begin again to live in a civilized manner. The Russian talks about his country, the Poles about their literature, the Jew no longer stares at the top of the hill with tormented eyes to see if the Germans are descending from there.<\/p>\n

They go on talking. I like their voices, the hesitant Italian, the open discussions. Dear sweet country of mine.<\/p>\n

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October 30, 1943<\/strong><\/p>\n

Tonight a Sicilian student showed up, a thin young man with a boundless gaze behind large glasses. Voice and accent of Rodolfo. He was walking from Mantua, a month on the road, sleeping in haystacks, asking for a piece of bread at farmhouse doors. He stopped with us and looked in the direction of the Sangro, which he intended to cross under artillery fire. When I offered him soup he would have liked to devour it, but mastered himself to make the unusual pleasure last as long as possible. I invited him to stay; he hesitated a moment. He was exhausted, nearly ill, his bare, skinny legs of a livid white. \u201cHow much suffering,\u201d he said, \u201cfor all of us, because of a single man.\u201d There was no hatred in his voice, only the desolate, tortured resignation of the meek. He said goodbye to me soon afterward: having overcome his brief hesitation, he had decided to leave, heading straight to the valley of Buonanotte and the lines. He studied the map for a long time, as if he were reading a death sentence. Then he said: \u201cIf I live, I\u2019ll send you a card, give me your address in Rome.\u201d And he headed down the slope, leaning on his tall stick and moving unsteadily in the mud, his legs sticking out thin and pale from under his patched overcoat. I fear I will never get that card.<\/p>\n

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November 2, 1943<\/strong><\/p>\n

Days ago, in the devastation of Montenerodomo, the Germans destroyed Domenico\u2019s shop\u2014the sergeant whose shelter is a dark, smoky cave a few hundred meters from here, and who sometimes prepares us a disgusting piece of mutton burned on the hearth. He has a tubercular wife and a son covered with a repulsive rash. Today, while he was hiding with us in the woods, the Germans descended on his cave and carried off the pig, on a leash, like a dog. When we returned and Domenico found out that the pig was no longer there, he asked Annuccia for a flask of must and got drunk. Drunk, he wept and sobbed, rolling on the ground in the cow manure and calling his pig in a loud voice, like a beloved person. He has nothing now. He fought for many years of war: he was wounded, and is half-blind.<\/p>\n

Now, while I\u2019m writing, Sofia and Armida\u2014Trecolori\u2019s daughters\u2014in red dresses lighted up by the sun are digging a pit behind the house to hide the linens. They work briskly, without grieving, as if they were turning over the earth for sowing. They protect themselves from the war, as from a natural phenomenon, cyclone or hail. They don\u2019t know the reasons for the war, where Germany is, what Great Britain is. Here, even in peacetime, there were no newspapers, and, besides, they wouldn\u2019t be able to read them. Mail was distributed once a week. One day the card that called up Domenico arrived. They know nothing, they aren\u2019t to blame. And yet it\u2019s they who pay, with burned-down houses, stolen animals. They stare at the Germans in astonishment, with no understanding of why they are doing them all this harm. The Italian people of the mountains, of the remote hamlets, of the isolated villages aren\u2019t to blame. It\u2019s we, we who are guilty. And they welcome us, shelter us, we who have been, first and foremost, their enemy.<\/p>\n

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November 4, 1943<\/strong><\/p>\n

I\u2019m worried about Rome, my son, Aunt Maria, my house. Countless objects that have followed me everywhere with their stories, their marks: a Madonna bought on the Lungarno, a book found in Venice. I\u2019m living entirely in the past these days: Havana, Paris, Papa. I have a tremendous desire to return to being young and happy, not to hear talk of wars, soldiers, not to be afraid anymore. Tomorrow the young Poles will leave with Peppino to cross the lines. Peppino made the decision, but now he\u2019s depressed, drawn to and dismayed by the void he\u2019s casting himself into. This morning Mario brought good news from his rounds: the German retreat is supposedly imminent. I don\u2019t believe it. I no longer believe anything.<\/p>\n

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November 5, 1943<\/strong><\/p>\n

I want to write a long story that tells about these woods. Which appeared friendly at first: our salvation, our escape. And now they\u2019re our nightmare. They\u2019ve become the mirror of our consciousness. To save ourselves we have to flee, at risk of our lives win the right to peace and freedom. We have no one to believe in, no one to follow. All Italy has taken refuge in us: each of us, inside, is all that remains of our country. A farmer promised me a notebook. The Poles are no longer leaving: the news arrived that you can\u2019t get through the lines. In the midst of these changing events the woods are unmoving. Oh, I\u2019ve found the story of the woods!<\/p>\n

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November 11, 1943<\/strong><\/p>\n

Antonio Piccone Stella, who is living on the Tre Confini farm, less than an hour from here, came to see me. He, too, wants to cross the lines. How distant literature is. We talk only about this now; we\u2019re impatient, we can\u2019t endure the waiting. I want to go, too. Everyone says: She won\u2019t make it. And I foam with rage: I\u2019ve climbed so many mountains, to so many mountain huts. I\u2019m not afraid. Better to die here on the lines, better to be carried away by the Sangro. Emilia, too, has said she will follow her husband. Every day we calculate kilometers, trace routes on the map. The Sangro is swollen with the rains. You have to know where the banks aren\u2019t mined.<\/p>\n

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Later<\/strong><\/p>\n

They\u2019ve cleared out Pennadomo and Fallascoso. The towns are burning, the odor of ash reaches us on the cold breath of the wind. The natural Germanic fury is unleashed everywhere. My thoughts turn constantly to America. It\u2019s as if emerging from these oppressive and treacherous woods I had no escape but a harbor in America, the white harbor of Havana.<\/p>\n

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November 13, 1943<\/strong><\/p>\n

There\u2019s a white ribbon on the door of Trecolori\u2019s farmhouse. Anna Maria was born, daughter of refugees. Around us the towns are burning, in Annuccia\u2019s house they are wailing and weeping for the women driven out of Pennadomo. And this child is born. Emilia and Edoardo wanted to flee this morning, then they gave up. One can\u2019t go, when everything around is so beautiful, when a new life opens up, with its endowment of dreams and hopes, when the maples in the woods are bright red, and the fields, with the shoots poking up, are green as in spring. One can\u2019t say: Tomorrow, perhaps, I will no longer see all this.<\/p>\n

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November 15, 1943<\/strong><\/p>\n

Every attempt to write is interrupted by the alarm.<\/p>\n

We have no more strength. It\u2019s cold, pouring rain, the slopes are muddy, slippery, going down to Trecolori\u2019s farmhouse is an undertaking, we fall down and get up, discouraged. A little after four, we\u2019re prisoners of the darkness, blind, shadows. With the darkness comes an intense depression that thickens the air, like a suffocating fog. We\u2019re silent, humiliated around the hearth. What time is it? Always too early to eat, too early to throw ourselves clothed on our pallets. My clothes are a perfect imitation of a tramp\u2019s. I have no underwear or socks to change; my raincoat, which still serves as a pillow, is black with dirt, mud, grime. Will I ever have another? Will I find my house again? And my books? And our life?<\/p>\n

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November 17, 1943<\/strong><\/p>\n

News arrived of a massacre at S. Agata. The Germans entered a farmhouse suddenly, seized the men, threw them against a haystack, mowed them down with machine guns. The women, all, were spared.<\/p>\n

This possibility of being saved owing to the sole fact of being a woman humiliates me deeply. It seems to me that my solidarity with Franco, and our other comrades, can\u2019t be complete, since, at the last moment, I would be unable to sustain it. When we flee all together or are crouching down, holding our breath, it seems to me that mine is an easy game. I\u2019ve decided, if they capture us, to shout, ceaselessly, \u201cDown with Germany, long live Italy!\u201d so that they don\u2019t take pity on me.<\/p>\n

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November 18, 1943<\/p>\n

We can\u2019t go on. We have to decide. From this morning at seven we were in the woods, now bare of leaves, lying on the ground under the blankets. We returned to the stable, then went up to Annuccia\u2019s to beg from her generosity a bit of polenta, but soon afterward we had to flee again, still hungry. The Germans discovered our shelter. They entered the stable, dug around in the straw, were made suspicious by those pallets, and remained in ambush nearby, hoping to surprise us like animals returning to their den. We saw them from the woods; some of us were armed, it would have been easy to fire, we saw them very clearly, we saw their legs opening like scissors, they were an easy target. We couldn\u2019t shoot; if we had, after two hours other Germans would have descended to burn and destroy all the farms within a radius of two or three kilometers. We wouldn\u2019t have run any risk: we could easily move to the opposite side of the woods, camp there. But the farmers, those who have welcomed and protected us, would pay for us, as has happened elsewhere. The Germans would burn the farmhouses, kill even the women. We could only spy on them with hatred, the whole wood was still and silent, an immense eye that looked at them with hatred.<\/p>\n

Tonight we organized watches: every two hours two of us went up to the ridge of the farmhouse, as sentries, protecting the sleep of the others. But, just the same, the others can\u2019t rest. One thinks: and what if they fall asleep? Or don\u2019t see them? I had my watch with Franco and Edoardo, from two to four, it was a white night, foggy. Now Corrado and Aldo are out looking around. Franco gave up making himself a cigarette: he can\u2019t do it, there\u2019s too little paper. I have to protect this notebook from the smokers. We have nothing anymore, the woods are wet from the rain, we can\u2019t light a fire, there\u2019s only a lot of bitter smoke in the stable. We\u2019ve even lost our only treasure, the pocketknife. I have to endure, continue to be strong. We\u2019re cold. Trecolori looked at the sky and said that in two days we\u2019ll have snow: so the Germans will follow our tracks. Edoardo and Franco want to cross the lines. They still seem uncertain when they look at us, at Emilia and me, but I know we\u2019ll go. We have to go. Not to escape the Germans, not to reach the English: to win by ourselves, across the lines, over the torrential stream, the right to be free. Tomorrow Piccone, who wants to cross with us, will come. Edoardo and Franco went to talk to Fioravante, who will guide us for a stretch. Now they\u2019re studying the map, they repeat yet again the usual names: Monte Pallano, Colle dello Zingaro, and then that bitter and fascinating word Sangro, Sangro, Sangro \u2026 Then they say: Trenches positions mined fields\u2014they trace the route. And I who have always hated these words, always hated war, never understood volunteers, heroes, now I, too, have been won over by this spirit, my only desire is to go toward all this. Maybe I won\u2019t get there, won\u2019t write anything else. But we have to try.<\/p>\n

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November 19, 1943<\/p>\n

A few seconds to write. We\u2019re leaving to cross the lines. Franco, Emilia, and Edoardo are ready in front of Trecolori\u2019s farmhouse, I went back to the stable on the pretext of getting the canteen I\u2019d forgotten but in reality to be alone, to write a few words. I\u2019m wearing pants and my raincoat and, on top, pulled over my head through a hole made in the center, a dark blanket that will serve to camouflage me. The edges are pinned with two safety pins. It\u2019s really heavy, I don\u2019t know how I\u2019ll walk like this. Over my shoulder I have another blanket rolled up the way soldiers do.<\/p>\n

All our friends have come down from the shelters to say goodbye. Tonino, nerves shattered, weeps uncontrollably leaning against a tree, the Russian rolls on the ground in pain from his ulcer. We shake hands, kiss rough cheeks. Worried, moved, they look at us as if seeing us for the last time. This morning we, too, were nervous, silent, we didn\u2019t speak to each other, we four, in order not to exchange impressions about the decision we\u2019d made. And now instead I feel light, light, smiling, as if I were leaving on a festive journey. There\u2019s a little sun, in the doorway the cherry tree positions itself lightly, as in an arabesque. I wrote something on the wall of the stable with tincture of iodine, I wanted to be alone for that, too. I don\u2019t know what, exactly, \u201cthe lines\u201d are, I\u2019m afraid only of setting off the diabolical mechanism of a mine with my own foot. I have money hidden in my breast, I\u2019ll also hide the notebook. I want to write this, very clearly: I\u2019m not afraid, I feel only this enormous, perhaps nervous joy. And the sense of playing a trick on the Germans, by fleeing, the desire not to be found here by the English, four healthy Italians, waiting idly. I feel only hatred and joy. If we were to die, our companions in the woods wouldn\u2019t even know it right away. My son, my aunt, would continue to live as if I were still alive. My mother\u2014who can say when she would find out.<\/p>\n

The sky is getting foggy. It\u2019s three thirty. Fioravante said that before dawn we should be at the Sangro.<\/p>\n

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Alba de C\u00e9spedes (1911-1997) was an Italian-feminist writer whose novel<\/em>\u00a0Forbidden Notebook<\/a>,<\/a><\/i>\u00a0was published earlier this year by Astra House,\u00a0in a new translation by Ann Goldstein<\/span> and with a foreword by Jhumpa Lahiri.<\/em> De\u00a0C\u00e9spedes\u2019 experiences of the war as described in these diary pages had a profound influence on the writing of<\/em>\u00a0Her Side of the Story<\/a>,\u00a0<\/i>which will be published in November 2023, in a new translation by Jill Foulston and with an afterword by Elena Ferrante.<\/em><\/div>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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